Task # 9 - Show your Funny Side!!

Holy Heart stopper Batman!!!! Stand up Comedy?? Never a fortay of mine, and probably the worst most awkward, gut wrenching task Mauler and Rush have thrown at me yet. This is definitely going to put me to the test. Not so much the speaking in public aspect, but more so the trying to make people laugh part. It is so difficult, especially with strangers.



I spent most of the morning making myself sick, if you haven't noticed already, I'm my own worst enemy. I kept picturing myself getting into an argument with a Heckler, and just totally bombing. 2 minutes started to feel more and more like it was an hour. I would occasionally snap in and out of reality telling myself it was only 2 minutes, to just relax and chill out, to think of the opportunity. But no, that soon faded and the worst case scenario kept reappearing. My guts felt like they crept into my chest and my hearts new home was in my stomach, nothing I did to prepare myself felt right.



As per usual, I got the daily affirmation from encouraging individuals, however, none of it sat well. How did I manage to get this insecure? I got a little emotional thinking about it all, and how 4-5 years ago I would have done something like this just for kicks, to say I did it and walk away a winner. Nothing I could do was helping the fear go away. I even contemplated not going through with it all. I came close about 3-4 times to calling it quits because I literally felt like my heart couldn't take it.



I have come to far and done far too much to chicken out now, how would it look? Not that I'm doing this contest for anyone other then myself, but I find myself getting all sorts of support from complete strangers, people I've never met who want me to succeed. If anything these people are also driving me, motivating me to want better for myself. If people I don't know want good things for me, why don't I want good things for myself? Its a revelation that helped give me the push I needed to put myself out there and attempt the seemingly impossible...Stand up Comedy!!



8:00 pm Thursday, January 29th @ Absolute Comedy - Preston Street.
Okay, so the show is sold out and the pressure is really on. I was able to bring my best girls with me for support (Lore, Filo, Marina, Saima and Jen....love u!!), they promised they would laugh no matter how hard I bombed, and every single person I met; I made make the same promise. There were about 12-15 people from the Station who came to support me (meant the world) and root me on. All of the staff ensured me it wasn't going to be as bad as I thought, but Hey, I wasn't hearing it, I was convinced I would die of premature heart failure the second I stepped on stage. Let me paint you a picture, the battle of Normandy in France, World War II....yeah well that felt like it was happening in my stomach, weird?



"I'd like to Welcome Holly to the stage...." Here I go, its all or nothing at this point. As soon as the spot lights hit me and the Mic was in my hand, it felt like a weight was lifted. I focused primarily on the sounds of my friends cheering me on, I knew they'd be there no matter what happened, and really, its only 2 minutes...suck it up and go for it.


2 minutes later....It was all over....It went by so fast, I couldn't believe it, AAAmazing! I got a few laughs here and there, which helped keep some of my pride. But most of all I was surprised I kept it together, and that it wasn't as horrible as I thought. Everyone was so nice, no Boo's or hisses, totally unreal. Mauler and Rush hit the stage to explain what just went down to the audience, and I just thought, man these guys are so awesome. The fact that they are doing this for me, totally blows my mind. I would never do any of these insane tasks on my own, and they (not to mention Jenni and Miss Josie) have helped me in ways they could never know!! Now hopefully I'll get some sleep before Fridays task, I'm losing my mind trying to figure out what it could be!!